talkin' about life

hi, I'm back! <plays that pokemon go song>

And this time I'm going to talk about life, which is suck lol. I don't even know why I am writing this, possibly because I just finished reading book called "By The Time You Read This, I'll be Dead." Yes, I know it's only a fiction but I personally can relate to how Daelyn's feelings. It's not the best book I've ever read but it's still good I think.

Okay, enough about the book and about the story, I am currently nineteen years old and to be honest I don't go through hard times in life that much. But sometimes I just feel bad for myself, and bad for people around me. I am not a number one fan of human, I am one of those if not the only one person who thinks that human is like the worst creature of all time. Every single thing we touch is destroyed. We're given so many things yet we still ask for more, and so do I, and that's just how human is, right?

But, as far as I try to accept myself as human being, there are still some odd question that I don't even know where are they coming from, but one thing for sure they are so bad in my opinion that sometimes I just feel like I'm going to hell just for thinking these question. And in this entry I'm going to show you what are the questions: (I'm a moslem so these question will be related to my religion, but I think everyone has to think sometimes, ryt?)

1. IF human is created because God wants us to be having a "free will" then why would there be heaven and hell?, why would there be rules? Aren't those making us not so "free-will(ed)?" anymore?

2. IF human is the only creature that has free will, then how come the devil can disobey God? meanwhile before human is created, the devil was one of the saint? creature of God. Does it mean God created the devil just to be thrown in hell? I mean I'm pretty sure God know what would happen as soon as God told the angles and devils about this creature called human.

3. Will the creatures that thrown to hell be there for the infinity? like FOREVER. LIMITLESS. I just can't imagine this concept, me, personally thinks that is just way too harsh? I'm not sure how to describe it, but yeah you get what I mean. If you are sent to jail for the rest of your life or given the death penalty, I can understand that. But to be in a HORRIBLE place for FOREVER, I just can’t imagine that okay, sorry. I’m aware that there are bad people in this world, but it’s not just because they WANT to be a bad guy. There are so many that influencing it. Even if they are born evil, I feel they deserve a little bit of forgiveness. Just a little bit. After a long ass payback for what they did.

4. What will await for us in the afterlife? After all this judgment, heaven, and hell stuffs what will happen? Will God make another universe, another creatures, and make everything disappear? I mean He capable to do EVERYTHING, right? So yeah