MY SUICIDE NOTE?

Hi, how are you guys doing?
I hope you guys are fine and happy, and healthy.

As for me, I'm not really in a good condition. I think I'm dying both physically and mentally. I don't have any purpose to continue my life I don't care about my future at all. I just hope it all end right now. I hope a meteor come all of sudden and hit me. I hope some car destroy my body. I hope I have the guts to take the drugs, I don't want to be in this sick world anymore. Did I really ask for this kind of life? I wish I didn't because if I did I must be a really stupid person.

I don't really know what to say, every dream that I have is tearing apart right in front of my eyes. I can never live in the street, travelling with the bus tour, trying every country's food. All I ever be is a fookin housewife, a mother, a teacher. It's not enough. I need more. I want to do something dangerous that'll make me cry just to think about it. I want to feel alive. But I can't. Not anymore.

I have enough of this shitty life for 19 years. I fucking done with everything. I just want to disappear. I hope there is someone who can encourage me to do it, to actually finish my life. I wanna be numb, i don't want to feel. so everything will be easier for me.

I hope you're having a great day. Cheers.