Scared

Today, I think again
about how scared I am
what am I becoming to
am I a monster

today I can't feel anything
just confused
lost
alone in this world

I don't know
if there's something
I could holding on to

God
I ran away from him
Family
I throw them away
Friends
I left them all behind

I'm all alone
tell me
who am I?
what am I doing
just running in circle

tell me
what should I do
how should I feel
how am I supposed to talk

kill me
bury me
torn my heart apart
take me to hell

save me
hold my hand
teach me
reach my heart

I love you
I hate you
I'm lost
I'm torn